rejuvenated.

I wish I still had my energy from 2017 so much has happened since then. But I wish I still had this youthful creative energy. Wake up and create anything you want, going hard with and urgency like my life was dependent on it. In reality it was, I don't know where I'd be if I didn't make this project. Our run from 2015 until now should be studied one day. From 9 magazine issues, to 6 albums, multiple websites, a clothing line. 

It's amazing how much we got done in that short amount of time. But honestly that's why my attitude is the way it is now. I kind of got discourage because I felt like we should be bigger than what we were. Especially because we were way ahead of the time. Now every magazine is digital, everyone documents the process, the content is the journey and the lifestyle. Getting told your shit is amazing so many times but still waking up to the same reality is the worst feeling. Seeing people less talented make it farther with more opportunities. We made something from nothing literally. But what I learned is that shit is all smoke and mirrors and what you perceive something to be is not the reality. You might be doing way better that person you are comparing your life/success to. Comparison is the thief of joy and if you want something go get it.

We were outside almost everyday In P's Chrysler van moving thru the streets! Honestly I wouldn't change anything from back then because it all led me to this point. A clear vision I always said I know exactly what I need to do, but honestly Im just letting god guide the steps. I don't have it all figured out my biggest problem is knowing when to be patient and when to press on the gas. I'm getting better at differentiating the two. 

I just need a breath, a deep breath to see the whole board. Then make the next move my best move.